an ode to student loans or: what does it mean to be a graduate?

$24,489.03

twenty-four thousand
four hundred and
eighty-nine dollars
three cents

virginia woolf
syntax
workshop
“too many semi-colons”
financial aid
[too many] middle aged white men
wine
poem
push
pretend
“I don’t get it”
experience
Gertrude Stein
revise
revision
“what does this mean”
overpriced
deadline
manuscript
cliques
Freud
lecture
homework
“stop writing about the body so much”
poem
book
a whole book?
bullshit
letters
grade point average
Baudelaire
appropriation
classroom
classmate
absent
synthesis
gender?
gender?
again?!
“I don’t get this”
“I don’t [want to] get this”
poem
poet
“what do you write”
“when do you write”
“why do you write”
and now
and now
what now
“what are you going to do now”
workshop
revise
new manuscript
make money
find money
steal money
poem
poem
push
push
push
resume
resume
apply
cover letter
sell yourself
sell self
sell poem
sell book
write [more] books
apply
apply
defer
defer
defer
prove poor
prove unemployed
prove poet
loan repayment
forbearance