turn to hide the symptoms
so,
I cannot say “I love you”
outside of text, poems
a whispered orgasm phony like blessed sneezes.
[i must turn around for this]
I attempt to sing its syntax
insist upon deep-throating its intimidation.
the la-la-love of it
weight and burst of musical initials
{too much}
and i could never carry a tune past shower stalls and
bike ride shouts
(whisper)
can you possibly love me after this?
almond milk eyes
drink my crunch.
where did that ceiling come from?
asbestos kills
add to that:
this day
last night
a haunting of unknown infiltration
perhaps i was touched
toward this moment.
my body wants to window
wants to reflect
wants to close
wants to rise
wants to streak
gather up these tiny squares while i disrobe
lay bricks over the numb
until the sound of choke
Aimee Herman 