An early morning walk back to my Brooklyn and as I pass by bodegas, unopened restaurants and cafes, I think about love.
How many times have I been written on by lovers in bars where pool tables act as backdrops to flirtations like:
“They’ve run out out of chairs, want to sit on my face?” (QJH)
Or scent of western saltwater separating our thighs and I write:
“Real love like Mary J. sung about.”
I am thinking about pace, pause, stop signs, traffic jams and foreplay. I am thinking about how often I have given it up and what it means now to hold back.
What is an alternative to love nowadays?
Screaming a song at the top of my lungs
Dance party sans pants sans strangers humping legs and hipbones
An uninterrupted indulgence of spooned peanut butter into mouth
Woody Allen films
A nap on park bench with the soundtrack of dogs barking and bike wheels churning
Thrift store shopping
Maybe I am longing for the grey
with just a hint of howled love
vulgar enough to replace bathing/ food binges/ and habits like hair removal and loneliness
award winning I want to thank god for you love
I am in search of the [ ] who can influence my shadow to glow in the dark.